Trust.

How fragile that can be.

So many times when you've built it up,
it comes crashing down.

Today my nephew broke one of my porcelain boats.
i didn't get angry,
i was more concerned he might cut himself.

As i tried to educate him how dangerous it can be,
he just said "it's just glass and glue!"

Indeed.

I guess sometimes trust is like that.

It's just glass and glue.

 

That was what i had subconsciously known all along.
Until i hit 30, that is.
Somehow or rather the wisdom within dissappeared.

Perhaps it is a neccesarry thing.
To understand lost & lack, so as to understand gain & abundance.
That it is all part of a neccessary cycle.

Today, I am glad to have found it back, and even more.
So glad it almost made me tear.

=)

The roads are empty
With a few red tail lights
The forests are asleep
As they snooze in the crisp morning air

A reminder of childhood
Two decades back @ 4:45am
A boy at the back of a pick up truck
Wind in his hair, on his face

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It rained heavy last nite which made this morning is a pleasant ride on the PIE
The foggy mists brought back nice memories of childhood
Where at this time in primary school I'll be running among the mist in the school field with my friends
Darting in and out of the thick fog
Laughing, running"

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It's 4pm and I am sipping ice tea.
At Mos Bgr, it's become a place that's always comfortable, always reminded of the time when I worked here.

If I am on the morning shift, it'll be about time to change shift.
I would be starting to close my shift, start counting the money, get ready to hand over to my friend..

If it is busy and knnbccb like a hongkong turnaround, I would stay back and help out..

Memories went back further to the teens where I would sit for the whole day mugging with a large coke at Mac's or Bgr King..
But that's half a lifetime away.. (scary, hard to believe I am already thirty thr..)

But I also know, city lights are always prettier when you are looking down from the plane..
In the heart of the city, sometimes all one hear is all the hustle and bustle..

I remember the stress of those exams..
I remember the ?!()&";: that I would rant on and on as a restaurant manager..

I guess in the same wavelength, when I look back at sixty six, it'll once again be like looking at bright city lights, and the hustle n bustle that I hear now will be a distant memory..

It's 4pm and I am sipping ice tea.

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Seems like i am always misunderstood recently.

Whenver i am happy there'll be instances - events, people, work, family etc etc that goes wrong and puts me down.

Like waves upon waves, no matter how strong i am, i will break down

Perhaps the world will rejoice at that.

Afterall i am just an insignificant small fry, no one seems to care and understand.

I wonder how do i evolve out of all this.

さっきまでの雨はもう上がって     Sakki made no ame wa mou agatte
アスファルト漂う街の匂い     Asufaluto tadayou machi no nioi
ねえそっちも　もう晴れてるよね     Nee socchi mo mou hareteru yo ne
西から回復するって     Nishi kara kaifuku surutte
朝は苦手な君だからねえ   Asa wa negate na kimi dakara nee
毎日ちゃんと起きられてるかい？      Mainichi chanto okirareteru kai?
そんなこと未だに心配してるよ     Sonna koto imada ni shinpai shiteru yo

広がる空はそう自由で     Hirogaru sora wa sou jiyuu de
何も変わってないけれど     Nani mo kawattenai keredo
隣に今はただ…ただ君がいないだけ     Tonari ni ima wa tada… tada kimi ga inai dake

声をきかせて     Koe wo kikasete
素直になればきっと     Sunao ni nareba kitto
分かりあえるはずさ     Wakari aeru hazu sa
ココロを開いて     Kokoro wo hiraite
声をきかせて     Koe wo kikasete
歩いてきた道は僕たちにとってきっと     Aruitekita michi wa bokutachi ni totte kitto
大切なSTEPさ　その未来への     Taisetsu na STEP sa sono mirai e no

君と初めて出逢ったのはそう     Kimi to hajimete deatta no wa sou
ちょうど今くらいの季節だったね     Choudo ima kurai no kisetsu datta ne
ライトアップした街並みが     Raito appu shita machinami ga
きれいに輝いていた     Kirei ni kagayaiteita

泣き虫な君はあれからよく     Nakimushi na kimi wa are kara yoku
僕の肩におでこをのっけて     Boku no kata ni odeko wo nokkete
泣いてたね　その温もりに     Naiteta ne sono nukumori ni
無性に触れたくなる     Mushou ni furetaku naru

人は誰でもそれぞれに悩みを抱えて生きる     Hito wa dare demo sorezore ni nayami wo kakaete ikiru
壊れそうな心を必死に抱きしめて     Koware souna kokoro wo hisshi ni dakishimete

声をきかせて     Koe wo kikasete
優しくなればもっと     Yasashiku nareba motto
愛し合えるはずさ     Aishiaeru hazu sa
目をそらさないで     Me wo sora sanai de
声をきかせて     Koe wo kikasete
絡みつく不安も寂しさも越えて行こう     Karami tsuku fuan mo sabishisa mo koete yukou
今のこの気持ちが絆になる     Ima no kono kimochi ga kizuna ni naru

yeah, since you went away hasn’t been the same
in my heart, all I got is pain
could it be that I played a game to lose you, I can’t maintain
sunlight, moonlight, you lit my life, realize in the night
while love shines bright
cant let you go; we were meant for forever, baby let me know

this past without you, can’t forget you
letting me be, the cloud hanging above me
raining on me; missing your touch
nights get long and it’s hard to clutch
we apart; it breaks my heart
it’s all for the best girl you’re my world
in time my love unfurls
till then wait for you girl

声をきかせて     Koe wo kikasete
素直になればきっと     Sunao ni nareba kitto
分かりあえるはずさ     Wakari aeru hazu sa
ココロを開いて     Kokoro wo hiraite
声をきかせて     Koe wo kikasete
歩いてきた道は僕たちにとってきっと     Aruitekita michi wa bokutachi ni totte kitto
大切なSTEPさ　その未来への     Taisetsu na STEP sa sono mirai e no
 

October was a month of celebration!!
Since it's both his n my b'day!!
Having so much fun didn't have time to update!!

Highlights:

@ Siloso Beach Resort!!
His b'day surprise celebration!!
The Spanish Rice place
Phobia2
Meeting D&J by chance!! We were neighbours hahaha!!

@Sungei Gedong Camp
My final ICT!!
MR Parade!!
Family Open House!!

@ Clubmed Kani, Maldives!!
My B'day!!
Our 3rd month Anniversary!!
His 1st Flight!!
Dives!!
Moray eel!
Sea Cucumber!!
Big Fish!!
Beach Dinner under Stars!!
Korean drama Full-House!!
Korean Maggi Mee!!
Buffet until scared!!!
The FreeFlow cocktails!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Planter's Punch !!!!!!!
Bailey's Almond Iced Coffee !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!